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Jennifer B.
30 September 2009 @ 09:00 am
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Jennifer B.
11 September 2009 @ 11:02 am
You see let me start with some back story, I've been dating a guy named Kyuu for over 6 years. He lives in Finland and that's not really a problem with me, distance that is, seriously not an issue. Through these six years we've developed, grown, and been through a helluve lot of heart ache, only to name a few is the time he thought I lived in Russia because his equipment was faulty. Then there was that time I told my parents about him and they flipped the hell out, and we nearly broke up. Then there was that time I visited him in Finland and I came back to a much colder and more distanced Kyuu, and it turns out he really wanted to see me leave because he scheduled too much in a short amount of time during my visit and it affected him in some strange way (all I wanted to do was see the Tampere Library, swear to god, nothing else mattered). Then there was the last time when I wanted a tattoo and he said he'd leave me if I so much as got one, and then turns around nearly a year later, when I mentioned that little statement of his, and he said it was a mistake. That he wouldn't leave me if I got one but he'd always "hate himself for not being able to stop me from killing myself" (how retarded can you be?).

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Jennifer B.
30 July 2009 @ 09:09 pm
Yes I forgot something, I got a fucking IPHONE PEOPLE!!!! EEEE!!!! to anyone who wants to chat it up or to talk my number is: 757-387-0895
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Jennifer B.
29 July 2009 @ 06:16 pm
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Jennifer B.
08 July 2009 @ 11:58 am
Hm, How do I start this? I was sitting and watching the Food Network and you know it's strange, people more often than not say "I plan to be dead by..." but how can you plan to be dead and gone by a certain age? Is it maybe a need to measure out our lives so that we'll live each day to the fullest? Or...is it cowardice? I've always been under the impression that wanting to die at any age, 30 seems to be the popular age, is a simply way to get a cheat out of life.

I've never been one to do things the easy way, it sorta upsets when to hear people speak so easily about dying at a certain age. I know I'll die someday that doesn't scare me in the least, but I'm not looking for death either, I have my problems. I have my issues, but I've always been a fighter, my mother put that spirit in me from the day I was born. I don't give up, I don't back down, I'm not ever going to let life get the upper hand on me again.

When grandpa died, god, I thought everything was going to end, I tried everything and anything to bring me back into myself. For the better part of a year or two, I was so deeply depressed I barely remember a day of it. It hurt so bad to lose grandpa, then one day, out of a clear blue sky...it was gone. The depression, the crushing sadness, all of it...gone...and me? I was left laughing my ass off in joy, I didn't come out of the experience unscathed though...there is still a hole in me where grandpa use to be, but it doesn't feel so empty anymore.

That's probably why i can't understand people who are waiting to die like that, it feels much like they've simply given up on living and decided it's time to go. Iunno, I've just never been one to lie down and take anything, I get so disgusted with myself after a time and eventually I'm shoving myself up saying "fuck this shit" and nawing, clawing and ripping my way through it all with an abandoned passion.

There again, like I said, I'm a fighter, they say make love not war, being a lover not a fighter, well dammit I'm a fighter and I make war not love, and I'll declare fucking war on anyone and anything that decides to wedge themselves between me living and my happiness. this probably makes no sense considering how exhausted i am but I don't give a damn XD
Jennifer B.
05 July 2009 @ 09:13 am
You know, I was sitting here thinking about why I have no internet friends save for Nina, my boyfriend, comments4u when ever hes online, and mememo from Tsuki-Board. but even then we don't really talk on a regular basis, except for me and my boyfriend. I don't know what it is, but for some reason the people I'd like to be friends with just never seem to really be that interested in being friends with me. Iunno maybe it's because I'm so much older than I really am in the way I view things or maybe it's because I'm such a freaking stick in the mud that throws people off.

Still hell even in the GW fandom I'm one of those people who'd love to be included but somehow gets left behind and usually never noticed. In a way that's fine, because I'm really content where I am but it wouldn't HURT to have more people to talk too that was interested in something that has been such a large part in my life. I've always been kinda to myself in the fandom and only recently have I come to find all the communities and such out there. It may be too early but still it'd be nice to have a few 1x2 or even some 1=2 fans, i'm flexible like that.

Even in the general anime community people shy away from me, to anyone who cares to answer, does anyone wanna JAB a guess as to why people have a tendency to avoid, shy away or just plain treat me like I'm just a convenience? ANYONE?! I won't get mad so long as you're honest. hell I'm all up for some answers...

I just cannot figure it out, hell I'm a nice person, generous as I don't know what, I'd give my left leg to help out a fellow human being, I'm loyal to a fault, yea I bitch and vent you'd do it too if you worked with as many snobby ass bastards as I did on a daily basis. Or hey, maybe It's because I didn't go to college that puts me beneath everyone, because I never furthered my education and shoved myself so far in debt i couldn't get out that I'm just below the average individual. But hey common sense has no place in the world huh? At least I'm street wise, I may not be entirely book smart and hell I couldn't tell you who the 21st president was or what he ate for breakfast on a daily basis. Hell I probably couldn't tell you a damn thing about president obama and freaking controlling wife for all I give a shit, russia could still be attacking georgia! I don't know, i don't keep up with the news it's depressing as all get out, and I'm not living my fucking life constantly depressed because the news media decides that it's within their right to ruin our perfectly normal days.

Hell I actually DO know how bad the economy is, and frankly speaking? Yea that's terrible, but I have a job, I'm fucking alive, and everything else in it's wake is just busy work! *grumble* maybe I'm just too damn optimistic and unable to kiss ass to every tom, dick and harry so I guess I'm just an undesirable person to converse with, I don't know. Does anyone else?
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Jennifer B.
28 June 2009 @ 07:16 am
I decided that I'd post my gundam wing stuff on Blogger instead, all you really need is a google account if you want to follow it any.

For the Love of Gundam Wing
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Jennifer B.
26 June 2009 @ 12:37 am
Read the following quiz at your own risk!

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Jennifer B.
24 June 2009 @ 06:17 pm
Anyways I'm getting another Tattoo soon, and people often ask me if the design I choose has any special meaning to it, the design is below

Tattoo Ink :: Coloured :: by *LinkWorshiper on deviantART

Anyways, it is Heero and Duo from Gundam Wing my favorite pairing of all times, but it's not only that. Gundam Wing and it's characters were revolutionary for me, they introduced me into a world I was previously sheltered from, the gay world. It started out innocent enough, I was browsing a site and happened up on some fan fictions, upon reading them I realized they were Trowa x Quatre fics. I got immediately addicted...but that's not even the best part, yes the smut was lovely but I wasn't all that addicted and the initial addiction faded with time. It wasn't until I found 1x2x1.org did I know what the word "addiction" meant.

You see I have a problem with long term addictions, they never last but a couple of months or so, if even that. Hell, when I had my girlfriend my love for her died out all of a sudden, I get bored and simply go on my way. It's strange, I've never stayed addicted to one thing for too long, not even anime or manga. It runs its course and then it's gone, end of story. Now with this in mind, do you think that back in 2000 when my addiction to Heero x Duo came up that it ran it's course? Like hell!

That's why they are unique, they've remained my constant addiction for 9 years, nine whole years. The only fan fictions I read now a days are only fan fictions with them in it, occasionally I'll read a Kuroshitsuji Ciel x Sebastian fic, but it's often times only casually. With Heero x Duo fics, I soak it up as if I were dying of thirst and that was my water. I also get madly defensive when their paired with anyone else but each other, usually I'm a whore for pairing people with who ever strikes my fancy but I can't seem to do that to them. Hell back in middle school when gundam wing was still relatively popular I shoved mashed potatoes into some girls bag because she was hating on Heero. She never knew who did it =D.

It's really an intense sensation, it's hard to explain but Heero x Duo have been nothing short of revolutionary for me, they're different from other fandoms I've had which have died out only shortly after beginning. I mean it just doesn't feel right to me if one is without the other, and they...it's so hard to say, I don't even know if I have the words for it and that's also new, I usually know myself better than this, but when i try to explain why their so important to me the words get stuck half way and die. It's a flurry of emotions, strong and powerful emotions, that feel like their trying to be caged when ti comes to these two. I know their fictional but to me their so real, and that's also new, I know where the line is between fantasy and reality but to me, those two are real.

I doubt I made much sense but I had to try to at least talk this out here, but either way I'm going up today to make the appointment ^_^
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Jennifer B.
20 June 2009 @ 05:48 pm
So I've decided that even though I suck, and even though no will read these probably I think I'm going to start posting some of my works here. Artwork and Fan fictions. I'll give warnings as necessary, but hopefully only the best of the best will be posted here. Today I'll start with a fan fiction, I don't think too much knowledge is needed to appreciate it. Still I'll give some back ground, Heero and Duo both use to be soldiers in a war, they met each other at the age of 15 during said war. That's basically it in a nutshell, on with the story!
Also for the warnings: PWP means Plot, What Plot? meaning it's pretty Plotless! it also includes some homosexual themes, so if you don't like that don't read.

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