Anyways I'm getting another Tattoo soon, and people often ask me if the design I choose has any special meaning to it, the design is below
Tattoo Ink :: Coloured :: by *LinkWorshiper on deviantART
Anyways, it is Heero and Duo from Gundam Wing my favorite pairing of all times, but it's not only that. Gundam Wing and it's characters were revolutionary for me, they introduced me into a world I was previously sheltered from, the gay world. It started out innocent enough, I was browsing a site and happened up on some fan fictions, upon reading them I realized they were Trowa x Quatre fics. I got immediately addicted...but that's not even the best part, yes the smut was lovely but I wasn't all that addicted and the initial addiction faded with time. It wasn't until I found 1x2x1.org did I know what the word "addiction" meant.
You see I have a problem with long term addictions, they never last but a couple of months or so, if even that. Hell, when I had my girlfriend my love for her died out all of a sudden, I get bored and simply go on my way. It's strange, I've never stayed addicted to one thing for too long, not even anime or manga. It runs its course and then it's gone, end of story. Now with this in mind, do you think that back in 2000 when my addiction to Heero x Duo came up that it ran it's course? Like hell!
That's why they are unique, they've remained my constant addiction for 9 years, nine whole years. The only fan fictions I read now a days are only fan fictions with them in it, occasionally I'll read a Kuroshitsuji Ciel x Sebastian fic, but it's often times only casually. With Heero x Duo fics, I soak it up as if I were dying of thirst and that was my water. I also get madly defensive when their paired with anyone else but each other, usually I'm a whore for pairing people with who ever strikes my fancy but I can't seem to do that to them. Hell back in middle school when gundam wing was still relatively popular I shoved mashed potatoes into some girls bag because she was hating on Heero. She never knew who did it =D.
It's really an intense sensation, it's hard to explain but Heero x Duo have been nothing short of revolutionary for me, they're different from other fandoms I've had which have died out only shortly after beginning. I mean it just doesn't feel right to me if one is without the other, and they...it's so hard to say, I don't even know if I have the words for it and that's also new, I usually know myself better than this, but when i try to explain why their so important to me the words get stuck half way and die. It's a flurry of emotions, strong and powerful emotions, that feel like their trying to be caged when ti comes to these two. I know their fictional but to me their so real, and that's also new, I know where the line is between fantasy and reality but to me, those two are real.
I doubt I made much sense but I had to try to at least talk this out here, but either way I'm going up today to make the appointment ^_^